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| It's been a while hasn't it...? |
[03 Apr 2009|12:19am] |
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So here I am, staring at my Livejournal at 12:20 AM. As I am writing this entry, I would have to say that I am currently going through one of the tougher times of my life - to think that I haven't fully gotten out of last year's dark woods...
This one of those times when I have to start reflecting and asking myself: how much do I still have left in me, considering this has been the biggest shit-ride in the shit-train?
But the thing is, in some morbid way, I live for times like these. I love how I have to exert excessive amounts of effort just to get out of this hole I'm in. And if anything, last year's events have done nothing but to affirm this.
And to quote one of my favorite authors:
When was it that I realized, that in this dark and lonely world, the only path you can truly light is your own?
During the previous two years, I got sloppy, allowing myself to fall into such a rookie trap. Dammit, I saw the bloody thing coming a mile away... I thought... no, I hoped everything would turn out for the best, but that was kind of unrealistic now was it? I got used to having a certain somebody that I almost forgot how magnificent it is to stand on one's own feet.
And in fact, that was the flaw behind what we had. It's scary when I think of how I bent so much for her that I almost broke. Fortunately for me, a certain movie going by the title of Ocean's Thirteen reminded me that in the end, I should hold on to who I am and never betray myself for anybody.
A good relationship is one that strengthens one's individuality while it complements the other. While compromises are a plenty, one should never compromise oneself just to keep a relationship running. This is not to say that if you know you're a jerk, you should stay that way. But it comes to a point wherein the version of yourself your partner loves is not the actual self, but a distorted unrealistic reflection
Unfortunately, I almost did betray myself. And I almost completely lost sight of who I am in the process.
But that's all in the past now. It's time to get back on track.
Now more than ever, I should steel my resolve through these tough times.
Okay, Tzi. Time to level-up. (Hahahaha, I ended up using such a gamer remark after all.)
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| WANTED: PHP/ Drupal programmer |
[23 Mar 2009|02:48pm] |
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Interested applicants may text me at 09178055130 for further details. Or you may refer names to me through that number as well.
Thanks a bunch in advance.
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| Watchmen geek moment for the day |
[09 Mar 2009|11:48am] |
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Officemate: Tzi, I need some help here.
Me: And I'll whisper, "NO"
*Tim, Dan and Ponci laugh*
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| Oh life... |
[03 Jan 2009|02:14am] |
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Thou art the true master of "Surprise, Cockface!"
I have long tried to master your methods. But I am but a pale imitation of life and her grand...
SURPRISE, COCKFACE!
One day... oh one day...
I will be the one with the surprise...
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| 2009... And here we... go... |
[01 Jan 2009|12:25am] |
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I'm not one to write a journal entry on the first day of the year. Usually, I write this year-end entry during Christmas day. I guess for this one occasion, it is more apt to look back at the year that was, seeing that Q4 of this year saw a pivotal point in time, a change of scenery if you will.
Long story short, life handed me my heart on a silver platter. It was not a very pleasant experience at all. Was it a mistake to let her in? Perhaps. But it was a mistake that had to be done to learn something important. And if indeed we were a mistake, I guess I'd list this as one of the best mistakes I ever made.
It's not all that bad I guess. It bore its own share of fruit of life lessons. But perhaps the most important lesson was this: IT ALL BOILS DOWN TO YOUR CHOICE. With a new year at the door, I now have a choice as to whether or not I'd let all the hurt and pain from last year dictate how I live this year. While there is still a lot of unknown variables, at the end of the day, it's my choice if I'm going to make 2009 a great year for me by myself. And I think I shall make the conscious choice to make this work, to make 2009 great, to find happiness in all its forms.
Let's make this year great, people.
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| Like I'd really let something like THAT ruin my holidays... |
[25 Dec 2008|09:12pm] |
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Hey girl, is he everything you wanted in a man?
You know I gave you the world
You had me in the palm of your hand
So why your love went away
I just can't seem to understand
Thought it was me and you babe
Me and you until the end
But I guess I was wrong
Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?
Is this the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around
That you were gonna make me cry
It's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find...
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
Now girl, I remember everything that you claimed
You said that you were moving on now
And maybe I should do the same
Funny thing about that is
I was ready to give you my name
Thought it was me and you, babe
And now, it's all just a shame
And I guess I was wrong
Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Can you tell me is this fair?
Is this the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around
(should've known better that you were gonna make me cry)
That you were going to make me cry
Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around comes around
Yeah
What goes around comes around
You should know that
What goes around comes around
Yeah
What goes around comes around
You should know that
Don't want to think about it (no)
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it (yeah)
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?
Is this the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around
(should've known better that you were gonna make me cry)
That you were going to make me cry
Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
But that's okay baby 'cause in time you will find
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
Let me paint this picture for you, baby
You spend your nights alone
And he never comes home
And every time you call him
All you get's a busy tone
I heard you found out
That he's doing to you
What you did to me
Ain't that the way it goes
When you cheated girl
My heart bleeded girl
So it goes without saying that you left me feeling hurt
Just a classic case
A scenario
Tale as old as time
Girl you got what you deserved
And now you want somebody
To cure the lonely nights
You wish you had somebody
That could come and make it right
But girl I ain't somebody with a lot of sympathy
You'll see
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
See?
You should've listened to me, baby
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Because
(What goes around comes back around)
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| CNN + STAR WARS = ... |
[05 Nov 2008|11:23am] |
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Remember that scene in Star Wars where R2-D2 projects Princess Leia's hologram and goes, "You're my only hope?"
Well...
TAKE THIS FOX AND LIKE IT.
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| I hate the Japanese... |
[29 Sep 2008|12:45am] |
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Because that was SUCH A KICKASS ENDING!!!
MACROSS FRONTIER IS BETTER THAN SMEX...
Those fucktards can't do anything wrong can they!?
"Oh it's only 24 minutes, they can't possibly end it properly can they? There's gotta be a 2nd season..."
*Watches episode 25*
AND BAM! SUPAH-JAPANESE-KICK-YOU-IN-THE-BALLS-WITH-OUR-AWESOME-ENDING-ATTTTAAAAKU!!!!
*Sniffs*
So beautiful... Eheeeeeheheheheheheeeeeh...
Dom, WATCH MACROSS FRONTIER BEFORE I KICK YOU IN THE BALLS. Seriously, if I see you next time and you say that you haven't watched it, you better be wearing a groin guard or prepare to not have children.
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| Gamer Rant: DRM and screwing your system over |
[20 Sep 2008|02:58am] |
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As a kid, my brother and I struggled like hell just to buy our SNES games. We loved having a user manual so bleeding our lunch money out just to have an original Street Fighter II Turbo was well worth it.
As I upgraded to the PSX, I found myself swimming in a sea of pirated games. But for the record, I bought these pirated games not because I wanted to screw my beloved video game companies over, it was just that I loved their games,but lacked sufficient disposable money to buy originals.
The trend continued into my PS2 days. As part of the early batches to buy a PS2, the Messiah chip was a blessing, allowing me to play Japanese PS2 titles that would otherwise have closed its doors on me.
But again, I opted for pirated games not because I wanted to give these developers the middle finger, but because I did not have sufficient disposable funds.
Moving forward, I am employed, more than adequately paid and a proud owner of a PS3 and a mid-range desktop computer (it was by all means high-end when I assembled it).
And in light of having sufficient income, I decided to make good on my policy - I decided buy original copies of PS3 and PC games.
And I would have been a happy gamer were it not for THIS.
The gist of it? I might have ironically screwed myself over more by buying legit copies of Command and Conquer 3, Neverwinter Nights 2, and the expansions of both games.
And don't even get me started with what has happened to games like Spore, Mass Effect and Bioshock.
THANKS, EA, FOR OPENING MY SYSTEM UP LIKE A WHORE'S VAGINA TO THE WORLD'S VIRUSES.
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| Because the world is just awesome... |
[14 Aug 2008|08:54pm] |
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No, I'm not here to talk about the recent Discovery Channel ads. Although, those do give me a warm and fuzzy feeling inside.
To know more about this guy, see this.
The song's lyrics in English goes:
Stream of Life
by Rabindranath Tagore
The same stream of life that runs through my veins night and day
runs through the world and dances in rhythmic measures.
It is the same life that shoots in joy through the dust of the earth
in numberless blades of grass
and breaks into tumultuous waves of leaves and flowers.
It is the same life that is rocked in the ocean-cradle of birth
and of death, in ebb and in flow.
I feel my limbs are made glorious by the touch of this world of life.
And my pride is from the life-throb of ages dancing in my blood this moment.
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How utterly appropriate.
I can't remember, but the song is based on some traditional poem of some country.
I was introduced to this video by a friend of mine in the office. Despite being semi-disruptive and ambiguously gay, I do share his sentiment of uniting this Earth. And this video crystallizes just what our planet needs now more than ever. On another note, the video does stir something in me and it awakens some dormant wanderlust.
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| A little update here and there |
[07 Aug 2008|10:42pm] |
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It's been quite a while since my last update. And to be perfectly honest, I don't know where to start.
[Video Games]
MGS4 makes the PS3 totally worth it. Not since the days of Clint Eastwood has an old man looked so bad ass. And for all the confusion MGS2 generated, all of that is cleared up like a fine shot of vodka. Hideo is one whacked up conspiracy theorist.
[Finally, some progress]
My father bought another piece of gym equipment a couple of months ago. I decided to try to make the most out of our growing home gym and force myself to workout every night. I don't feel it, but according to this body fat analyzer Ina gave to me, I've been steadily losing some of my body fat ever so slightly. I look forward to keeping this up I guess.
[Long distance for a month]
Ina is in Jakarta for an entire month to pursue her dream job. On one end, I wholeheartedly support her for this. On the other end, it's been only 3 days since she left and... well... you connect the dots... Argh...
[Work work work]
My project at work is reaching a critical point. Depending on what happens, my project will take off (which marks Headway Dynamics finally starting to get off the ground) or get postponed for 8 months. It's hard being a salesman. But I'm learning a lot here.
[And of course I have to air my thoughts on The Dark Knight]
Heath's performance as the Joker is totally brilliant. He easily surpasses Kevin Spacey as Lex Luthor in Superman Returns (and given Kevin played a mean Lex as well, that's saying a lot). I am not saying this due to his death or anything. But I honestly feel that film is able to properly show to even non-readers the complex relationship between Batman and his nemesis.
Well, that's it for now. Gotta jet.
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| Livejournal update via PS3 |
[20 Jul 2008|10:43pm] |
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Hahaha... Still can't believe I'm doing this. But yeah, I'm updating my LJ using the WiFi capabilities of the PS3.
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| Huh... Speak of the devil... DOWN WITH SMART... |
[29 May 2008|08:42am] |
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I was about to post about how much of a grammatical atrocity their new campaign is... And wouldn't you know it, their web ad flashes on my LJ login screen...
I hate you SMART.
Consider this your typical O-boy rant. But by God, SMART's latest campaign just blows the shit out of every other media campaign ever created that endorsed inappropriate, wrong, even AWFUL grammar. Some are more or less benign. They just don't make any sense at all (Penshoppe: Shoot you. It's all about you! <---- WTF?) Others try to sound clever. But if you really think about it, they just sound stupid (I'm glad I've MET... What? Met who? Speak in proper English you moron).
Me na Me. It's wrong the moment your head has successfully processed the three words. And that's just the tip of the iceberg. If you listen to the theme song, you will hear every single linguistic deformity today's text generation has ever generated. It virtually shorts every synapse in my brain every time it's played on the radio.
It is a product of today's most dangerous philosophy and the linguistic deficiency brought about by the SMS phenomenon here in the Philippines. I will agree that the most dangerous philosophy spawned by modern day marketing is, "the customer is always right." No, the customer isn't always right. If there's one thing today's contact centers have proven is that a good lot of them are idiots. "It's all about me. ME na ME!!!!!11111oneoneone"
SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!
This country's language proficiency is down the pits, our English and Tagalog proficiency is going down, and in an all time low. And your idea of helping is a campaign that promotes linguistic bastardization!?
Please, for the love of God, do not contribute to the continuously deteriorating literacy rate here in the Philippines. If you had one extra Peso to spend, I would rather you spend it on a second text message just because you decided to say "I'm here" instead of "Hir na me." (which is shorter if you think about it).
See? Wasn't that so hard? Geeze.
And don't even get me started on SMART's choice of talent in the form of Kim Chui. I HATE HER TOO. (Then again, I have a lot of hatred to pass around.)
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[07 Apr 2008|10:59am] |
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So I finally got my PS2 fixed and bought some accessories to make the living room look more organized despite my frequent presence there playing (i.e. wireless stuff). I also started to canvass for PS3 package offers. With any luck, I should be able to get one two months from now. With the rate this console churns out games, I guess I won't miss out on much in two months (though I hear that MGS4 is due out soon.)
With the advancement of gaming consoles comes the issue of hardware reliability. Currently number one for the most poorly designed console is the 360 with units failing left and right. Second is the PS3 with 2 out of every 10 units failing after 1 month. Fine, it is a race. But I hope that these companies don't sacrifice quality and common sense just to get the next big console out. I would rather have a 10 year gap in between consoles if it meant that the next one was sure to work for a prolonged time (I never had these problems during the SNES days). But then again, I also have to factor in the gestation period of new technologies. I suppose that a decade is too long for a console.
I dunno. I just wish that I could once again feel as comfortable buying a PS3 as I did when I bought my SNES a long long time ago. The worst thing we had to put up with back then were controllers breaking down left and right and that was more because of my brother and I mashing buttons for our Street Fighter pride than anything. And it sure as hell did not cost as much as me going to Greenhills to have some part of my PS2's drive assembly replaced (although it did turn out to be much cheaper than I expected).
Here's what I think companies should prioritize when making a new console:
1) Hardware reliability - Sony and Microsoft had to churn out billions of dollars to calm down the public when the first batch of PS2s and X-Boxes broke down left and right for major design flaws. Form factor be damned (although I wouldn't want my console to be as big as my TV). If a slightly bigger console means better heat dissipation and hardware longevity, so be it.
2) The price of dev software - Companies won't be as eager to invest in your console if the development kit is very expensive. The PS3 suffered from this in the beginning. More interested parties will increase the chance of grade "A" games.
3) Gameplay - In my humble opinion, we are reaching a threshold that will take a long long time to break in terms of graphics. PS2 graphics are great. 7th gen console graphics are fantastic. But at the end of the day, if the gameplay was crap, then you essentially just have a glorified Blu-ray player. Nintendo caught on to this with their Wii. By no means is their AGP superior to the PS3 or the 360. But it's the innovative way to play games that attracts more people. The six-axis controller of the PS3 is another good example, adding another dimension to the tried and tested PS controller design.
If they get these 3 right, the rest should in theory, follow.
/Geek Rant
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| To batch 2008 |
[28 Mar 2008|04:17pm] |
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Congratulations guys. TAGAY MUNA BAGO TRABAHO!!!
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| Man I love team-ups... |
[23 Mar 2008|02:22pm] |
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My favorite Anime Mecha title has been around for over 25 years now. And up to this day, most anime fans will agree that the closing battle found in Macross: Do You Remember Love was one of the most beautiful space battles ever rendered.
It was the perfect culmination behind the mecha title's premise. And while it was not initially the top song of the charts for its time, Ai Oboete Imasuka sent chills down the spines of loyal fans and eventually new converts as well and it continues to do so up to this day.
But more than Macross, I would have to say that the Japanese Mecha genre (as opposed to the US general rendition of bulky juggernaut-like behemoths) is something that has captivated the hearts of many. Gundam and Macross are considered to be the founding fathers of this genre. So it is exciting sometimes to think about what would happen if the two worlds found each other. Actually, what would happen if Gundam, Macross and several other very popular anime mecha titles existed in the same world?
And what would happen if they all helped during the final battle against the Zentradi?
Man, I love team-ups. It merits repeating: MAN I LOVE TEAM-UPS.
50 points to the one who can name all of the titles featured here without the aid of wiki. Ü
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| Didn't quite think that was possible... |
[17 Mar 2008|03:00am] |
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So okay, I was having a great time playing further into Another Century's Episode (ACE) 3. The ACE trilogy is basically what you get when you have a company like Banpresto muster up the rights to A LOT of anime mecha titles and have the guys from Fromsoftware (the guys behind the Armored Core series... yes, that is their name) breathe life into the said titles. If you're a fan of the Japanese mecha genre, then you're bound to have geekgasm after geekgasm with this game. With me in the cockpit (hehehehe I said...), Macross pwnz all other titles.
But I digress.
I was in the middle of unlocking the remaining mechs in the game when I suddenly hear some audible mechanical difficulty in the disc bay. And before I knew it, the game hung. And after several attempts to reset the machine, it became apparent that the disc drive for my PS2 gave in.
Oh my God, I played my PS2 to death.
I'm certainly not in the mood to get a new one seeing that I am saving up for a 7th Gen console. However, I still have quite a number of hours left before I consider my PS2 days over. With Greenhills reformatted like a new PC, I have absolutely no idea where to get this rugged PS2 of mine fixed. Suggestions would be welcome at this point as again, I don't know of a shop that I can trust.
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| Celebrating 25 years of Macross |
[15 Mar 2008|11:58pm] |
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Tonight, I decided that I would contribute to the celebration of Macross' 25th Anniversary through a new layout that showcases their new chapter: Macross Frontier.
Yun lang.
25 Years of Macross: Adaptability
Oh and one more thing.
Robotech sucks ass.
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| It applies to more than just work... |
[14 Mar 2008|02:08pm] |
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You're a brilliant person, Tzi. You just need to learn to listen more.
Those were the parting words of my former supervisor during my last night in McCann. He wasn't there due to some business with the GMA network (probably talking to them regarding media slots for the Coke ads). But found the time to call me up that night and impart his share of wisdom to me.
I initially thought that, this flaw of mine only applied to work - that outside the walls of McCann, I was more or less a good listener. Last night however, I discovered that there are times that I'm not. Even worse, it happened when somebody needed me to listen the most.
I am not a good listener. But I want to learn to be one.
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